The Bracelet

In 2008 my Mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. I stillremember exactly where I was and what I was doing when I got the call. I wassitting in the passenger seat of Peter’s car and we were dropping off one ofour Young Life kids.  As soon as Iheard the words “honey…………(long pause) I have breast cancer” I went numb. Aftercomforting me that she would be ok, she quickly got off the phone. No matterwho you are and what you believe, I bet when most people hear “cancer”associated to someone you cherish so much you begin to cry out to God to letthem live. I did. I was not ready to face this life without her and so I prayedand prayed that she would survive.

A sweet friend of my Mom’s made bracelets for all of my Mom’sfriends to wear as she went through her cancer journey. The bracelets served asa reminder to pray for healing everyday. 

The months that followed the news were filled with surgeries,chemo and radiation. As an incredible writer, my Mom took many along with heron her journey through writing. I have every single one of her journal entriesand will never forget reading each of them….sometimes laughing historically andsometimes weeping as I curled up in bed and prayed that this would passsuccessfully.

I will never forget going home and seeing her in a nightcap. She said “are you ready?” and she removed her hat. My breath caught in mychest as I pushed through tears and forced a smile. “It looks good Mom.” Whowas I kidding, my Mom’s bald head didn’t look good. The only thing good aboutthe situation was knowing that we could totally trust that God had the bestplan for my Mom.

After a long year of procedures and pains, ups and downs,highs and lows my Mom was declared to be in remission! She had “survived” andshe was ready to get back to her life. Get her body back. Get her energy back.

The spring following her remission, my Dad and her took atrip to San Diego. On that trip she started to develop a bag stomach pain. Shewas worried that her cancer was back and it had spread. She confesses that thisis something that goes along with being a cancer survivor; wondering if everache and pain is the sign of its return. She laid in bed that night and criedout to God. “Please Lord, let this not be cancer returning to my body. AndPLEASE LORD, LET ME LIVE LONG ENOUGH TO MEET MY FIRST GRANDBABY.” The Lord gaveher peace and she shut her eyes that night.

The next morning, my Dad and her were in their hotel roomwhen the phone rang. Having no idea that she has prayed this, she answered thephone to my voice. It was me, her daughter, and…..I was calling to tell her Iwas pregnant. My eyes are flooded with tears as I marvel in God’s precious andperfect timing. 9 months later, my Mom held my hand as I birthed her firstGranddaughter, Nevaeh Grace. And that is what she was for my Mom; a littlepiece of heavenly grace.

I was going through an old draw yesterday when I found the bracelet and I was quickly overwhelmed with joy and thanksgiving. My Mom has since become a grandmother of 2 baby girls, has grown her beautiful hair back, has gone back to work, and has continued to shine for Jesus. If God takes her home before me, my life will forever be changed. But I know we will dance together for eternity. I love you Momma. You are my hero. 

Nevaeh as I explained what the bracelet meant.

The bracelet over Selah's heart ( well not exactly positioned right but you get the idea)

Selah holding the bracelet

I love this picture! The bracelet and Selah's holding my hand

Praising God for my Mom!

Nevaeh giving the bracelet a kiss:) WE LOVE GRANDMA!

Turn of events.

It's one of those days..or should I say weeks. The computer crashed (of course, right after I booked 7 photoshoots) so I'm writing this from my iPhone. (Should be interesting). My patience is minimal and my energy low. I put Nevaeh down for a nap, she goes down easily. Then I spend the next 45 minutes getting Selah down. Finally, after getting some gas out she falls asleep. I lay my head on my pillow to try to rest for a few minutes...recharge on this day full of frustration...less than 30 seconds of my head being on the pillow...I hear Nevaeh start to cry. She has awoken! Are you kidding me??! We have family pictures at 5 and I'm not sure I have the energy to gather the flock and attempt to get a picture with us all looking the same direction. I can tell my attitude is lousy and my desire to change it is really only for selfish reasons..I don't like feeling like this.

I'm reminded that patience, love and joy are fruits of the spirit and therefore nothing I can force or fake. I simply need to be a vessel fit for the presence of God to dwell in me. Ba hum bog. I feel like Scrooge right now.

But I don't want to settle! This is no fun so here we go. I may not be able to force or fake patience, joy and love but I know what I can force: my attitude.

So this does not come naturally, but with a sincere heart let me try this again.

Today has been challenging. I welcome you challenge. My hubby has been working a ton and taking a class on the side so my time with him (and away from the girls) is small. God, I am so thankful that my husband has a job. With unemployment rates so high, I'm sorry for grumbling about my husbands busy schedule. You are the great provider and I praise you for that. I praise you that you've blessed my socks off with a husband who is so smart..what a privilege that if I have a question about really anything I could feel equally confident asking Peter as I would asking google.

The terrible twos have debuted in the Zimmer home early..but Lord I'm so thankful that I have a toddler. We have watched three sweet families lose their babies and they would do anything for one tantrum or one meltdown or one more moment with their children. Thank you for my little Nevaeh. She has her moments but more than that she has so many beautiful moments when her heart shines and her sweet personality spills on to those around her.

Thank you for Selah bug. A baby crying can be very frustrating but again I praise you that have blessed us with not just one but two precious little girls.

God I know I can't do this motherhood thing alone. I fail miserably when I try. Thank you that you give us a helper the Holy Spirit. I need you.

Thank you for perspective that comes only from time with you. Dr. Phil has nothing on you Lord! I love you, let my attitude reflect that the rest of this day. Sorry for being a bum earlier. Thank you for forgiveness and grace! Where would I be without it?!

Until we meet again!
C

We just got back from a fabulous family vacation to San Diego. It was such a sweet time with Peter and the girls and we got to see lots of family and friends while we were there. Escaping to the cooler climate, the change of scenery, and the refreshing beach air just blessed us tremendously.

I was anxious to dive into my Bible this morning, since that is one thing I didn't do on the trip. I'm doing a fabulous study and this morning I read about the Israelites wandering through the desert and the provision of the Lord. (If you are interested in this study, let me know!) One of the bullet points in my study states "God revealed Himself to His children through constant care and provision. He still does. In what ways has He recently shown you His heart by providing for your needs?" 3 things came to mind immediately.

Almost exactly a year ago we were headed to San Diego for our family vacation. We were about 100 miles from San Diego when our car totally stopped running. Peter quickly veered to the side of the road and we got out. It was still very hot where we were and Nevaeh was about 8 months old. Multiple people stopped to ask if we needed help and we finally ended up leaving the car and hitching a ride with some construction workers. We had them take us to the nearest little town and called the tow truck. Peter and I were both convinced that my little Snow White was toast. After hours or waiting for tow trucks and rides to arrive, we dropped off the car at a little hole-in-the-wall mechanic and headed into to San Diego....car less. Four days later, we picked up our car, only to find out it wasn't toast! The car had lost transmission fluid and that is why it just stopped running. We were so thankful!

Sooo this year as we headed to San Diego, we definitely had not forgotten our previous experience. We prayed leading up to the trip, right before our trip and on the road.... and gave PRAISE when we officially passed the place where we broke down with the same car, one year prior. It's the little things that I have been really loving lately. God answered our prayers that our car would successfully take our little family to and from San Diego safely and without any problems!

The second day we were in San Diego I started feeling sick. Like flu sick. I was achy, hot and feeling really icky. It was only day 2, we still had 3 full days ahead! Peter prayed as we crossed the Coronado Island bridge that God would take away this sickness so we could enjoy this time we had as a family. I text my Mom and brother and asked if they would pray too. I love having people to call on that you know will really pray. After a 2 hour nap, I woke up feeling completely better! I was just so grateful that God had heard and answered our prayers so we could continue to enjoy our time in San Diego.

Night number 3 Selah woke up at 3 in the morning with a fever. I had totally forgotten the thermometer and the infant Tylenol so we were kind of stuck. I knew that finding an open store to buy a thermometer and Tylenol would not be easy. I didn't want to overreact but I was concerned that my little 3 month old had a fever. I lay in bed and thought of what I should do...then I did what I thought would be best. Prayed. I put my hands on Selah's little head and prayed for protection and healing of her little body. And I prayed she would wake up healthy and without a fever in a few hours. I woke Peter up and he prayed as well. I fed Selah and she went right back to bed. Five hours later we woke up to a fever less, happy baby girl!

God is beyond good. He provided so much for this sweet little trip we took. Everything had his hand on it.

Bless you Lord....and thank you.

Sometimes I think that it has to be big, dramatic things in order to really give God the glory for provision. But it's so not true. God provides the big and the small. And I love that about Him. How would you answer this question? "In what ways has He recently shown you His heart by providing for your needs?" I'd love to hear!

Happy Monday friends!!
Carrie

Life is a big classroom.

The other day as I was praying for patience through a bout of Nevaeh tantrums I realized there is a lot to be learned from toddlers. I started putting together a list of things that I learn through Nevaeh and then added some things I try to teach her. Here they are, in absolutely no particular order: 

Try Everything Once. (learned)

I mean why not, right? To me I wouldn't think that something that you wiped all over your smelly, hairy, armpit would appeal to the pallet, but if it tastes as delightful as it smells it's worth a shot. Now there are more useful things to try....like a somersault. Because once you try this, you may find that you can actually do it and do it well. See Nevaeh tried a somersault and did it wonderfully. Now she does somersaults and jumps and headstands all day long. As an adult, it would be quite odd to pick up somersaults. But there is always golf, knitting, writing, speaking to groups. Try something. Do something. Discover.

Be a fan of yourself (learned) but not your biggest fan (taught)

I just love when Nevaeh gets a kick out of herself. She claps for herself quite often and I realized we need to do that sometimes. Clap for yourself. But know when to stop. No one likes those people who are their own biggest fan. There is so much to learn in this life and I highly doubt you'll ever master all of it. Give yourself some credit for where you are putting forth effort and once you actually excel at something, let others cheer the loudest for you. 

Be other peoples biggest fan. (taught)

I have this list. It's mental so no one can actually view it, but it's basically a list of people I am huge fans of, for one reason or another. I have a dear friend, Raquel. Couldn't be more proud of her accomplishments and humility. She's done things I can't even pronounce, but you'd never know it unless you looked at her resume. Cassi. Couldn't think of a more encouraging friend and passionate person. Linda Andrews. Can't even explain in, just something about that lady I can't get enough of. My list seriously could go on and on and on but since you don't know these people I won't bore you. 

Include everyone (learned and taught)

I love this one because it's dear to my heart yet I don't feel like I've intentionally taught Nevs this. Whenever she gives me a kiss or a high five or a "nice to meet you" handshake...she has to go and give baby and Daddy one as well. There is hardly ever a time when she will only give one of us a kiss, it's usually a family affair. And I love it. I want her to be aware of other people's feelings and I think this is a great start. I understand you can't ALWAYS include everyone, that's just not practical or wise. You need intimate settings and friendships but I'm talking about in general. If you think someone might get their feelings hurt for not being invited..just invite them. This is probably why I invite 60+ people to our parties. Ok, maybe I need to work on this. 

Never tire of a wonderful welcome home greeting (learned-big time)

There is nothing more wonderful I can think of than when you walk through the door and this little 30 inch ball of LOVE comes running at you full speed with the biggest smile and the happiest face. I realize this would be a tag ridiculous if I did this, but I can modify. Getting up off the couch or walking away from the sink to greet my man is a wonderful life lesson learned from my 20 month old. 

Get your hands dirty (learned)

Not a huge fan of diving into things. Whether I'm plagued by laziness, doubt, or germaphobia I tend to like my hands clean. Nevaeh on the other hand....she'll pick up a cricket, she'll smear smoothie all over the table, she'll rub glue in her hair...she's not afraid to get messy. In fact, she often welcomes messy. I don't think I will rub glue in my hair or smoothie on my table, but I'm learning it's ok in life to get a little messy. To try things. To fail. To get back up. To discover! 

Always say good bye with a kiss (learned)

Whenever Nevaeh picks up any sort of bag she says "byeeeeeee" and comes and gives you a kiss. She is pretending that she has gathered her stuff and is now ready to leave. It's really sweet. I realize I should never be in such a hurry that I don't kiss everyone in the house before leaving. You never know when your last good bye will be. 

Be creative (taught)

I always tell Nevaeh that getting dressed is one of the favorite parts of my day. It's a time to be creative! Unless you go shopping quite often you might tire of your wardrobe frequently. I do. I can't tell you how many times my husband has heard "but i don't have anything to wear!" The truth is I don't have anything NEW to wear. Am I spelling wear right? All of a sudden it looks funny. ware. Ok I think i was right. Brain fart. If you have 3 pairs of pants, 3 shirts, 3 necklaces, and 3 pairs of shoes....do you know how many different and NEW combinations you could create?? So Nevaeh is slowly learning, that you can add a different bow and pair of shoes to a dress and make it look totally different! viola! 

and finally....

Be Passionate! (learned and taught)

Aren't toddlers just the most passionate little things? My little Nevs loves her blanket. If you decide it smells and needs a washing, watch out. She may or may not throw all 22 pounds of herself onto the floor and wail the entire time it washes AND dries. Or if you rid her of a nap and then also tell her "no"....oh man. Well I guess that wouldn't be passion...that would be tiredness. Anyways, I love Nevaeh's passion. Not the bad passion, but the good passion. Her face and body exude life and passion as she explores and discovers all there is to discover in this world. I never want to grow out of that. Passion makes you hungry. Hungry for more. Hungry for life. 

Thanks Nevi Nu for teaching me, reminding me, and making me laugh! 

xoxo,

Carrie

TGFR "Thank God for ramps" and old and new life!

I've been thinking about this a lot lately. Life. How fast it goes. I stare at the littlest, sweetest baby face many hours of my day. This new life brings a sense of hope. Hope for a beautiful life ahead. Where, if God wills, the days behind her are few and the days ahead are many. But when I leave my house I'm always made aware of the elderly who rely canes, walkers and if lucky, a loved one's arm to assist them in the simple thing of walking. You see to me walking is simple, but not to the person who has undergone hip replacement surgery numbers of times or the person who has fallen from a 30 foot climbing wall and now lives in a wheel chair. So i don't take this for granted. Walking is a gift.

Today I started a Bible study. It was at a church that I don't actually attend so I don't walk this campus much. I've been there a time or two but am unfamiliar with it for the most part. I arrived and as always had to assemble a game plan of how to get my little family of three from my car into the building that was 100 yards away and separated by a large parking lot full of elderly drivers :/

Aha! My infant was sleeping so she would ride in the stroller while my toddler would hold my hand through the parking lot into the the building and to her classroom. It worked just as planned and we made it through the parking lot to the .....stairs! Stairs separated us from the building. I quickly realized that I had just walked past a dozen plus handicapped parking spaces, thus realizing that there had to be another option besides these stairs. (sidenote- can two kids be considered a handicap? I think I'll look into that) So I look around and quickly spot a ramp. It's not until I'm finished with class going back down the ramp that I had the following thoughts. 

Ok fast forward a few hours. All the women are leaving the building, some talking about where to go to lunch, some just on a mission to get to their cars asap, some lingering and chatting with friends. After I grab the girls from the nursery I make my way back to the ramp. And there it happens. My eyes fill with tears. Tears happen to be my reaction to a lot of things. It wasn't really sad what I saw it was just "life" and sometimes "life" just totally moves me and my reaction is tears. And sometimes laughter with tears. The stairs led straight to the parking lot. The ramp took a little longer as it wrapped around a large section of grass. About 20 feet ahead of me a lady was using the ramp because she clearly couldn't have used the stairs. She limped as she hung on to a walker that gave her the support she needed to walk. She walked slowly, cautiously even. It did not look easy. I had a horrible vision on my toddler innocently running down the fun ramp and knocking her over so I held my little Nevs back until the other lady made it to the bottom. Then I thought of myself and why I was using the ramp. I had new little life that was chilling out in a four wheel stroller and I was no fool thinking of taking the stairs with a stroller. (i've seen it done before) so that's why I was on the ramp. The ramp can be used for all types of things but today what I saw was the ramp being used for old and new life. Both so incredibly precious. 

It made me want to shout! "Thank you Lord! You are beyond awesome and I'm lucky to know you!"And it made me tear up and then laugh.

Psalm 47:1-2 Clap your hands, all you people! Shout to God with songs of joy! For the Lord, the Most High, is to be feared, a great king over all the earth."

The ramp that brought me great joy today!

Ramp running!

Ramp usage required!

Whatever life has you using these days, the ramp or the stairs, I hope you find God's hand in it. 

xoxo,

C

I cannot believe...let me take that back..i can totally believe that I haven't posted to my blog in about a year! one year! Life is....busy...to say the least. Now I'm not a Momma of one but two! Two little angels in my home to love on, snuggle, kiss, pray for and cherish. Still that awesome, hot husband walking around to love on, snuggle, kiss, pray for and cherish. 

My passion for writing has not died, but grown! The only difference is that in this phase of life, my words are not written down, but rather written and stored in my head. Until I forget of course, which these days take a little less than one hour. That is why I'm motivated to use my blog again. To remember. To share. To write. 

There is no way I am going to bore you with the details of all that has happened in the past year. The first paragraph pretty much sums it up. Instead, I will pick up from here and share maybe once a week, once a month, heck maybe not again for another year. 

What I would like to do is share with you some pictures...because aren't pictures just the greatest? They tell so much. I love communicating through pictures, which is actually why I am starting to get into photography! These pictures will share what we have been up to lately! 

Loving this verse today: 

Psalm 103:1 Bless the Lord oh my soul and all that is within me bless his holy name!

Bless you Lord! 

and bless you my sweet friends!

xoxo,

C

My sweet angel Selah Kate

Our newest joy! 

That sweet face I get to wake up to everyday!

Two daughters? I must be dreaming! Loving me some girly wirlies! 

Seriously saving money using our espresso machine to make Lattes instead of  buying them! 

Doing tons of projects around the house! Peter made these frames for us! Cost him about $12 worth of wood...in the store it would have cost about $50 for 5 if we got lucky! I love them!

Starting to really get into sewing and wanting to start making my own clothes!  We will see! 

I love doing crafts! I made this wreath for our new family and children's pastor who will be joining our church! 

Nevaeh! If i had to describe her in a sentence: big personality with a huge heart and smile that will melt your heart. Pretty much obsessed with this little love bug. Nevi nu!

My sweet hubby turned 26 today! He worked today so we celebrated his burfday last night! I actually figured out how to use the grill and made BBQ chicken, corn, these really yummy potatoes, and watermelon! I had been asking Peter for the last week or so what he wanted to do for his birthday and he said he really just wanted to have dinner at home with our little family. So that's what we did:) It was perfect!

Poor Peter had to listen to my horrific singing. Usually you're in a group ya know so if you can't sing, your voice gets drowned out my others. Not this time, it was a solo, but he got the point:))

After Peter opened his gifts I asked him to stand below his sign so I could take a picture. He laughed like "are you kidding me???" But the sweet man humored me and I got a photo. He told me this was something we do for our kids, but I reminded him that he is a kid. At heart. I asked him if he could be less normal and more cheesy and he looked at me with a blank stare for a few seconds....then busted out this...

That's my babe and I'm CRAZY about him! Happy birthday lover!

Holy moly holy cross is awesome!

yo our church is launching October 9th, 2011! Woop woop! Last Saturday we gathered to hit the neighborhoods of NW Tucson and invite them to the public launch of Holy Cross Church! I stayed at the community center with my dear friend Jenna' and the babies. Here they are! Aren't they all adorable:))Please meet Cohen! You can call him Jeevs or Cohen, he will probably respond to either. At least I'm giving it a shot. Isn't he a doll baby?
Here they are! Cohen, Aubrey and Nevaeh! Aubrey is Nevaeh's cousin and they are the same size! Aubrey is about 5 months younger though. It's pretty magical if you ask me.

Daddy's Home!!

Nevaeh is crawling around at lightning speed and pulling herself up on everything. She gets so excited when she hears Daddy walk through that door! I have tried to capture it a few times and this is the best I could get. It's cute but it doesn't quite capture her excitement and facial expressions the whole time. Who wouldn't want to come home to a face like that?!

hOuSeWaRmInG pArTy 9*17*11

We have moved and are starting to feel semi-settled. Buying our first home has been such a beautiful process. God's hand was clearly in it from the beginning. We first saw the home as a short sale. We put an offer on it and about 5 weeks later learned that it did not go through due to the owners bank not accepting a short sale. So we kept looking. I kept my eye on MLS and saw it pop back up about a month later. "Could it really be on the market as a foreclosure so quickly?" I pondered. Well turns out it was! And so we made another offer on the home, only this time for less money! And we got it!

We got the keys on August 5th and you better believe we camped out in the new digs the first night. We brought a borrowed air mattress, the pack n play, Nevaeh and the coffee maker. It was fabulous. We didn't get much sleep but we have great memories of the first night!
And of course when God blesses you with a fabulous new house, the next thing in order is a PARTY! so we sent out about 60 housewarming invitations and on Saturday, September 17, about 45 people joined us in breaking in the new house. Unfortunately I didn't take ANY pictures at the party, just pre-party! Boo! I need to get better at remembering to have my camera with me at all times! Our beautiful neighbors on both sides came over and we met them. Friends and family attended. Even my sweet parents and brother drove in from Prescott and San Diego just to help us celebrate! Love them!
There is no significance of the color choice (someone asked me that). Peter and I just went to Walmart and picked out the table clothes we liked. Then I went to the fabric store to pick out fabric to make my pennant banner. Super easy! And I bought tissue paper at target and made some cute and easy pom poms. The center pieces were an idea from Pinterest, Kerr bottles with clear stones at the bottom, filled 3/4 with water and a floating candle. I tied Raffia around the neck to add a little flair. Cute!
The backyard is definitely one of our favorite parts of the house! It won't be long before Nevaeh is running all around it! and Daddy chasing her of course.
We had a blast with all of our friends and family and are so thankful for everyone who was able to make it out!

9/11

Daddy was working today, which I think was pretty neat. His fire department was doing a community event at a local church here in Tucson. The church held 3 services and each was well attended with folks piling in to remember 9/11/01. Wow how things have changed these last 10 years. In our country and in our individual lives. I will never forget that Tuesday morning. I was just a freshmen. A baby. I remember my Mom coming downstairs to wake me up like she always did, but something was very different. She said "we've been attacked, come look at his." Eyes half shut I drug my feet to the couch to see what it was she was talking about. I remember going to school that day and the halls seemed packed with people but silent. Every period our eyes were glued to the television as we sat watching the devastation unfold. Most seats were occupied, but every now and then there would be a period where I would sit next to an empty desk. A few people were suffering first hand. Family members worked at the WTC or for NYFD. I remember my freshmen year social studies teacher saying, "you are watching history be made. You're children will read of this in books, like you read of the Boston Massacre now." It was surreal. Devastating. Heart wrenching to watch people jump from buildings.

We will never forget, that's the truth.

Ten years later I'm so proud to be married to a fire fighter. Although Tucson doesn't get action like NY does, I have no doubt in my mind if my husband would have been there 10 years ago, he would have risked his life to save anybody he could of. I am so thankful for those firemen from NYFD. And I'm so proud to be an American:)

8 month Nevs News

Where does the time go? I thought yesterday I called Peter and told him I was headed to the hospital. Today, boom 8 months. Well 8 months and 4 days to be exact. I will try to give you a quick update on the last 3 months!

5 months- Nevs got her first 2 teeth! They seemed to pop up out of nowhere! One day she's a toothless old man look alike and the next day, hello teeth!! Between 5 and 6 months Nevs started sitting up. At first she sat there for a second and then fell backwards, but not too long later she found her balance quite nicely and has been a sitting champ ever since.

6 months. Nevs started army crawling. More like worm crawling. It was pretty rad to watch, but that only lasted a week or so before she came full force hands and knees tearing up and down the house. Now she could enter a speed crawling race. Especially if you put something awesome in front of her like: your cell phone, a piece of paper, a beer bottle. These are the things that seems to get Nevs especially physced. Don't ask me.
7 months. Nevs started pulling herself up on everything. Chairs, walls, people, ovens, dogs. We also recently (in the last month or so) discovered Nevaeh's love for animals! It started off with Mimi and Grandpa's dog Reka. She would get so excited whenever Reka entered the room, trying to get to her however possible. Then in continued with Nana and Papa's dog Tatum. Tatum makes her laugh and squeal! Then this last weekend when we were in San Diego, we discovered it's not just doggies but cats as well. She had one eye on a cat the whole weekend. Cats are a little more patient with her. She can pull their fur and they put up with it for a little but longer than the doggies do. Also Nevaeh started saying "MAMAMAMAMAM" And while it warms my heart, she doesn't know it's me. I discovered this when she started pounding on our vacuum cleaner box saying "Mamamam." I gently reminded her that the vacuum cleaner is not her Mommy, but that I am.
And now here we are 8 months. Nevaeh is getting three top teeth. One has broken through and two are visible. Everyday is a gift. I won't take one for granted. She lights up our life every day. Peter and I have been listening and reading all about raising children, and well we definitely know we have our work cut out for us. And we couldn't be more excited.
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new life motto

So i have a new life motto. Live everyday like it's everyone elses last.

You might be more familiar with the phrase "live everyday like it's your last." But as i thought about that the other day, it seems incredibly hard to relate to. I can't live everyday like it's my last because then everyday i would drain my bank account with frivolous crap and Peter would wonder why skydiveaz.com had charged our debit card $180 .....three times. Friends would wonder why I'm calling three times a day, family would wonder why I show up at their homes and don't leave until wee hours of the morning. Yeah see that won't work, so i tweaked it. Live everyday like it's everyone elses last. Life can get really frustrating. Friends, family, co-workers, spouses, children and random strangers can totally get under your skin some days. That's life, ain't never gunna change:) So....you change....or in this case I change. My perspective. I like it.

I guess I should specify, so people don't think i want people to die the next day. See when i start living like it's everyone elses last day, then the things that really bother me about folks seem so caddy. I mean life and people and things can get frustrating but when you think of the alternative of not having those people around, it really changes you. It's kind of a depressing thought but it today was your best friends last day, or your husband's last day or your child's last day or a family member or neighbor's last day...what would you do differently? It doesn't mean that I am calling everyone I know everyday, but for me it means every interaction i have with someone could be the last. so take advantage of it and love them and don't let a day go by without being thankful for and loving on those immediately surrounding you.

eh this perspective is interesting and has many holes, but for now....i think it works.

I also have a new favorite song...

check it out.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MkmCzeFp_hg

and happy last day of life..in my mind.

Home Sweet Home

Whenever anything significant happens (like getting married, having a baby, buying a home) I always think what would I have thought if 10 years ago someone were to tell me "In 10 years you will marry the man of your dreams. In 1o years you will have a baby girl of your very own. In 10 years you will buy a house." At that time I would have thought "wow what will he, she and the house look like." But now I sit here, or lay here (on an air mattress) and I can see. Husband. Whoa, he's hot. Baby girl. Holy smokes she's adorable. Home. Wowza we could afford that?

My parents had money growing up so I never went without. I was beyond privileged to do many things and have many things. But being on your own and paying for life on your own (or being married to someone who pays for life;) ) is a different feeling. A blessing really.

So we have moved and here we are. Garage, back yard, laundry room, pantry, walk in closet. New place, new space, new sounds, new grounds, new smell, new feel, new ness all around. It's all new to us.

And we are beyond thankful and I continue ask God ... how can and will you be glorified here?

just a little update.....actually this is really long i just finished writing it

It's hard to keep up with this little one. I clearly can't blog quick enough. I give updates a month or so late, but as some say "better late than never". Although my physics teacher junior year thought "better never than late" was more appropriate. Sometimes I agree. Anyways, hi. Let me tell you about Nevaeh. She's so fun. She sits, she scoots, she crawls, (well she actually doesn't crawl, she does the worm across the room) it's more fun that way. She coos, she babbles, she smiles and she FREAKS out when Mom leaves the room. She's in a mom phase, and to be honest...I love it. Her hand/eye coordination is quite impressive. She does this crazy thing where she can be looking one way and she senses the spoon near her mouth and she grabs it without a blink. She's like a frog catching a fly with its tongue, except this is way cuter. We definitely think she is going to be a little athlete. With a mom who drove the ball 250 yards the first time she picked up a driver and a dad who played pac ten tennis and rocked at it, we have high hopes for her;) But more importantly we are praying fervently for her. For her to know Christ at a young age. For her tongue to be loosed to proclaim the gospel. For her heart, her soul and her eternal destination!

Other news and blessings in our life. The air conditioning in my car went out. Let me remind you we live in Tucson. There should be a bigger word than 'hot' to describe the feeling of the heat, because hot doesn't seem to cut it. maybe if i capitalize it. HOT. Yep that looks better. It would cost roughly $800 to fix it. Now to some that may be pocket change and fixing it would be a given. Not for us. Pocket change is more like $.80 and if it cost less than a dollar to fix our AC, well the world would be a weird place. So Peter and I just switched cars. He took my Honda and I took his Pathfinder. And on with life we went. But the story doesn't stop there. We got a call three days ago from someone who I guess will remain anonymous (I would like to publicly shout a huge thank you to these people but knowing their hearts, they would rather I didn't). So anyways, we got this call. Someone wanting to pay for our AC to be fixed. ???? !!!!! :__( <-- emotions we felt. And if you don't read symbols that would translate to shocked, excited, overwhelmed (tears). Why would someone do something so nice? Because we serve a God who is kind beyond belief. Who is gracious beyond belief. Who is merciful beyond belief. No the check wasn't written by God himself, but by God's people. God's servants. And we are so thankful for the blessing of air conditioning:) Thank you Lord:))

Next bit of news.....our loan was approved! We heard from multiple people that the loan process would be a headache. They would ask for document after document and when you think they couldn't possibly need anything else they will ask for another document. Well interestingly enough that wasn't how it worked out for his this time. We gave them an initial set of paperwork and about 3 weeks later we received an email that said your loaned has been processed and approved! Congratulations! So we close on August 22. The home doesn't come with appliances so we have been keeping our eyes on craigslist, home depot sales and stuff like that. We found a great washer/dryer set at Lowes for $700. But then we checked Craigslist and found a gently used set that was much nicer than the Lowes one for $400. Wow! So we bought it.

And last but not least my prayer list is growing by the day. I have a prayer list that I break into sections. (health, babies, grief, relationships, etc). I don't write just anyone on this particular list. This list is for immediate prayers. (some very urgent) Let me just share a bit of this with you (everyone will remain anonymous no worries). I have 3 people under health right now. Although I wish this was referring to chronic headaches, colds, flu type stuff these three people have aggressive cancer and 2 have been given how long they will live as one awaits to hear results. I'm praying for miracles here. I have ELEVEN people on my grief list. 9 people who have had a tragic death take place in their lives and 2 who have had miscarriages. It's a crazy time right now and my prayers are never stopping. On a lighter note I have 3 people on my babies list. These are three people who are months away from giving birth. For 2 people it is their first and for the other it is her 2nd. This list was at 7 a few months ago, but God has been gracious and 4 beautiful, healthy babies have been born. And last but not least I have six couples on my relationship list. Three who are engaged to be married. 2 who just recently said 'I do' and one who is dealing with some struggles in their marriage right now. So why am I sharing this with you? Because God has been teaching me so much about prayer. How vital it is. I'm just one small person and I have 27 people on my immediate prayer list. This doesn't even begin to scratch the surface of people who I could be praying for on a continual basis. Let me encourage you to stop and notice all those around you who need you to be lifting them up. And what a wonderful seat I have.....to sit front row and watch all that God is about to do. Praise and glory to Him!

If you read all this, I'm impressed. If not, well then you aren't reading this part and so I can write whatever I want!! Peter would like to buy half a cow and store it in our freezer, how crazy is that.

Adios.

4th of July

Nevaeh's first fourth of July!! In the best place ever! Prescott! 4th of July in Prescott is always very fun and festive. We walked around downtown at the art fair, went to lunch, watched fireworks, bbq ed yummy food! all around wonderful time!

Wedding

Two weekends ago two of my closest friends from high school got married! It was the most lovely wedding. So fun seeing so many high school friends and catching up on life. We danced the night away and had a total blast! Congrats Chris and Raquel, can't wait to visit you in Nashville! xoxooxo

Portland

Oregon was amazing! It was so fun to seeing Kelly and Jonathan. We were there Monday-Friday and it felt like we were able to do so much. We went to the coast and walked on the beach, when to a brewery and laughed our heads off, we went to a gianormous waterfall that reminded me again of how awesome God's beauty is, we went to the park and played with Nevs, we went downtown and ate yummy food and went to the largest bookstore I have ever seen in my life and we spent some good ol quality time with my beautiful sister and her soon to be husband! We were so blessed by the trip!Neveah LOVED the beach! She was the happiest little girl next to that ocean. I will post of video soon, it's just too cute to pass up!
This was us having a beach fire at night! So beautiful and such lovely company!
This was the ginormous waterfall I was talking about above. It literally took my breath away!
There it is!
Oregon is so green and lush and simply beautiful!